Somehow, i dun feel like my family, is family. got what i mean?
Like a home which does not belong to me
a freaking liar mum which is totally selfish?
and twist what she say before =)
what a great mum =)

A brother? which don't care about the family? Cool right?

Just went out to have a family dinner
it make me feel that, i'm a stranger?
the whole dinner, i nv even talk at all
which actually to me is consider peaceful =)

Seriously man, i going to look for a job
and not spend my mum's money, except my daily allowances
a laptop? she find so many reason to reject it
e.g , LATER LOST , SO EX , USE SO GOOD FOR WHAT =)
cool reason right?
seriously man, I got such a "great" mum =)
like what i used to say
orphan is so much better, at least there will people who care for u =)
how fortunate...

oyah, didn't they say the last child is always the best?
nah, i think other way

for now, i just feel so empty
no more sadness or anger
i don't care anymore, as for i know i can live on my own
with friends is enough i guess
if not, alone =D
( heh i still got my darling =D)
not too bad uh?